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Today is my leave. Haha. Had some time to clear my mind, read through past blog posts when I was much younger. Rolled eyes at my posts because some were really... Lame?

Anyway, I just gonna post the one and only post about you. And that's all.

October 13 2019 - My second time attending, but it was the first day I met you
October 20 2019 - Second time we met, and we got everyone numbers
October ?? 2019 - Apparently I left the group chat LOL so I can't see which date you posted the video, anyway the main point was I opened a private conversation, looking at your name, wanted to ask you questions about the video but end up didn't happened
October 30 2019 - You asked in group if anyone interested to attend Thursday game with you, I responded with a bit aimai aimai. I opened a private conversation again, thinking should I ask, then I didn't ask again. But you asked me if I want to go haha, then I'm like oh ok.
October 31 2019 - I think I appeared before 6.30pm at Bras Basah haha oops.

...Fast forward...

December 8 2019 - First 'fight'
December 9 2019 - Shopping for clothes + Math tutorial in Starbucks
December 13 2019 - Cold War? Timeout?
December 14 2019 - Confrontation, then agreed to be just friends
December 18 2019 - After my movie with the rest then you texted me ah, to distract me from my supposedly horror movie(Changed to Jumanji). Then talk until you suddenly say want to try from friends again.
December 27 2019 - You gave me a origami snowman which is currently at my work desk.
December 31 2019 - You unhappy about me getting involved with the lunch drama
January 3 2020 - You kinda... ranted at me? Then that was the first Friday I actually came at 6pm and we had a talk outside the mall. Then I was crying, heng I got tissue paper LOL. Then after game, I guess we managed to clear things up a bit bah.
January 5 2020 - Sad + disappointment bah. I guess there's a miscommunication but because of this miscommunication I got to know what you are thinking. And I cried to sleep.
January 6 2020 - I was still buay song so I scolded you, but your replies were the wake up call. Like hey, we were wrong. That day I went to arcade and was winning coins/crying too LOL. But the people I met at the arcade were nice. Then you asked me out for the first time lol. It was already too late.
January 7 2020 - I said we should stop here. Yes, let's stop here. Don't look back.

January 12 2020 - Back to normal friends talking
January 27 2020 - 就算我再怎么了解你，也没办法原谅你那么对待我的真心吧？You said you doubted my feelings, said I’m criticizing you personally. It just feels like you looking for a 台阶 to hide the fact that you are scared bah. 你到底怕什么？我想，伤害我，只是你的自我保护吧？